Saturday, November 20, 2010

Putting life on hold

I realized today that, in a lot of ways, I put my life on hold when Einstein is out of town.

The realization came as I was trying to make some financial decisions (nothing major, just trying to decide what to do with extra gas and grocery money that we save when he is gone). I was looking at our finances, playing around with different scenarios, and I thought, well, I will just leave it until he gets home. Thankfully, he is never gone for more than a few months at a time, so I have the luxury of putting off decisions...but in this particular case, it is dumb to wait until he gets home. And since his communication is pretty limited, I don't want to waste his time with the decision. And then I, I am putting off a lot of things, while he's gone...

Besides cleaning the house and shaving my legs. there are a few things that I really shouldn't be dragging my feet on, mostly professional decisions that have meaning for our life together. None of them are things that would drastically change our life, they are just things I would like to talk over with him. There is also a laundry list of silly things that I could totally take care of and he wouldn't even notice:

-Finding wall decor for our bedroom
-picking a color to paint the guest room
-buying more memory for my computer
-putting away our summer clothes
-reorganizing the kitchen drawers
-buying a new comforter for our bed

These are not earth shattering decisions. They aren't even things that we would discuss much. I just miss his input and help.

But that isn't enough of an excuse. He's gone too often for me to put life on hold when he's not here.

1 comment:

The Mrs. said...

I was just discussing this with flyboy.... via email of course. The boyos got their bunk beds this week and they were THRILLED. I needed to get mattress before they could break them in, now... do I wait till he comes home and make them wait, or let them get them now and he misses out on the big excitement? I went with getting them now, even though I'm pretty sure I threw my back out, its not fair to make them wait and put their lives on hold.

I know he feels like he missed out, I felt like he missed out but bottom line, we can't always be waiting around. life goes on and its not fair, on top of all the sacrifices they make.